Finally Pe understood, after a long time and lots of thinking, that if things happen in a way it's because they should be like that, and not different. That was thought by Pe, but not seen, she could tell she believed that but she didn't see it for herself. When finally one day, she woke up and she thought and saw that. And then everything started anew.
Well, finally Pe had the moment that she expected. After that she was devastated. She could no longer believe that things could get better those next years ahead of her. And sure, she still doesn't. It's too obvious when you loose something that you'll never ever find in another person. Even that she's told there's lots of things ahead, she knows it will never be the same.